One common problem people who write computer programs experience is what they call an "endless loop". (What happens is that in writing the program, the programmer makes an error in the logic, and when the computer gets to that part of the program, it gets stuck and repeats the same set of commands over and over, and never moves on. (I have noticed that in my and other's lives. (We each seem to have programs for what we do and how we do it; and sometimes because of faulty logic we get stuck in one spot and repeat the same patterns over and over, and don't move on. (e.g., Nikki's pattern with married men.)))) (Programmers solve that problem by aborting the program, taking the print out of the program back to their desk, finding the fault in their logic, making changes in the program, re-running the program to see if it's now working right and accomplishing the task it was designed for. Then repeating that process over and over again until the program accomplishes what it's supposed to. (Isn't that pretty much what I have done the last few years? (I spent a couple years in the bars, to meet people and find a girlfriend (supposedly); but my errors in logic (among other things), led me to make the same mistakes over and over again, and I never came close to accomplishing what that program was supposed to. The last three years I have been going through a process of analyzing my programs for social and sexual interaction, making changes, taking myself to the bars to see if those changes did anything positive, then back home to study and make more changes, then back to the bars for more testing, ….)))
(Noon) I can see a correlation between how I use my unconscious mind for problem solving, and how my accounting aspect uses computers. (There are accounting puzzles that have so many pieces that it's difficult to solve them using only the conscious mind. One solution is to break them down into small segments, and do it manually; but a much more efficient solution is to feed the raw data into a computer program which is designed to handle that puzzle, and let it crank out the analysis.)
My writer aspect has sure been out a lot this year. (Most of the past six months, he has used up almost all of my energy.) (I know there are parts of me that wonder what happened to the summer. (Tis almost like they are asleep most of the time, and then they will wake up, look around, and wonder what the fuck is happening and why I let them sleep so long. (I seem to rely on my friends to stop by and wake up those parts of me, now and then.))) (My work aspects don't seem to have on / off switches, and when one turns on, it seems to keep running until all of my energy is gone. (Then I crash until morning, and do it again.)) (We each have a finite amount of energy, and have to find ways to distribute it among our various aspects, in order to live a full and balanced life. (I have to get better at that!))
(1pm) I wonder how many people who are fat are that way for the same reasons I smoke cigs? (i.e., to avoid and replace physical intimacy.) (I think my fat days was mostly to find out if becoming someone so gross no one would want me, would reduce the frequency and duration of my ex's jealous rages.) (I now know that my cigs turn off most women, and at the same time help to satisfy my need for touching without a lover.)
(4pm) Nice workout. (I know quitting cigs would help my workouts, but that doesn't seem to have helped me any. (I can even notice a difference in repetitions between when I am smoking filtered cigs and when I am rolling my own.)) (The muscle groups which I have developed the most have been the one’s closest to my heart and lungs, and the one's which have developed the least are the one’s furthest from them; and I would guess cigs are a lot of the why.)