One problem with studying on my own is I find ideas I could try; but I never go out, practice, and see what works. (That is true both socially and professionally. (e.g., I have the knowledge and skills necessary to make lots of money in business, and I keep studying and increasing that; but I don't put it into practice and use it.) (e.g., I seem to prefer writing letters at work, to communicate. (In situations where most people would call or go visit, I write a letter. (And, if I can't get away with that, I tend to put off doing it.)-(I am glad I can at least communicate through writing, but someday I am going to have to learn to talk to people.))))
There seems to be a long line for every job that opens up here. (There was an article in the paper that said they are projecting 3,000 new jobs across Montana, but that there will be eight people lined up for each of them.) (So far, my research of other places hasn't turned up anything different.) (Maybe I shouldn't have left that job here before finding another, but I didn't want to continue committing so many questionable acts.) (This unemployment has been very productive in every way except money, and I can't complain.)
I wonder if Carrie or Hunter have made it to Marineland yet? (I have never been inside, but Nicole and I used to f in the parking lot there along the cliffs. (Tis a pretty and romantic spot at nite.))
(10am) I like Suzanne Vega's new release "Solitude standing". (She has fascinating eyes.)
(11am) Christine called to say she is quitting the County, so I may get a few more weeks in over there training her replacement. (I could sure use the money.)
I found a mental health clinic where I can go for $10 an hour, but it will be a month or so before I can start.
(1pm) Nice walk.
It occurred during today's walk that Hunter is supposed to be good at seduction, and he has always told me to do and say what ever it takes to get women into bed, and find out afterwards if I like them or not. (Maybe I should find someone who is good at that and spend some time with him, analyze what he says and does, and figure out how to spot "dumb women" to practice on?) (It would mean not building friendships with women, but maybe that is the only way?) (It would mean using and hurting women, but maybe that is how the game is played?) (I wonder what the definition of "dumb women" is?) (From what I can see it seems to involve selecting a target and modifying one's behavior until one hits on whatever it is that blows her skirt up. (And, it seems to involve hiding one’s emotions and motives, and lying about a lot; but maybe I am missing something?)) (I am still lost.)
(2pm) Christine told me I should call the city and ask about that job I applied for with them, so I did. (I am not even going to get an interview.) (Oh well.)
(3pm) Some money finally came in, so it's laundry time. (Yeah.)
(7pm) Erica stopped by, got me hi, and kept me company for awhile. (Neat!) (She has been wearing a lot of pretty outfits with this new job. (Tis different seeing her in a dress. (Except for pictures, this was only the second time in almost five years.))-(Yum.)