6-30-87
(8am) Last nite I dreamed that my truck was stolen.
(11am) Well, I put together another mailing to the local CPA firms, and sent off some more job applications. (Such fun.)
(Noon) I put together a mailing to the Chambers of Commerce in all major towns in Washington and Oregon. (Start expanding my job search.)
I got a hostile letter from Joe today.
(1pm) I wrote a hostile letter to Joe.
(3pm) Erica stopped by for a visit. (Nice!)
She had a great holiday in Jamaica! (Good for her!)
She wanted to know why I feel there is no future for me with Sharon. (For one reason, we are not looking for the same things. (She is ready for a husband, but I am not even ready for a steady girlfriend.)-(For another, she reminds me too much of my ex.)-(And, she is an introvert.)-(…))
Being self-conscious is part of my defense mechanisms. (It keeps other people at a distance.)
Erica says Miranda found a new beau. (Good for her!)
I think that moving to a big city would worsen my social problems, but I have to find a paycheck.
(5pm) Nice sun tanning session. (Carly stopped and visited with me again.)
(6pm) Nice walk.
One thing I love about here is the climate. (Low humidity and cool summer nites are wonderful!) (On the other hand, the long gray winters really suck.)
(10pm) Quiet nite. (Nice.)
7-1-87
(7am) Either my ex dictated a lot of that last letter, or else he is just like her.
I started out five years ago, $120,000 in debt from my marriage (I tried to make her happy, but buying things was obviously not the answer.), and I am still owing $80,000. (Maybe I should try to pay even more to make them happy, but my finances aren't good enough. (Where does responsibility start and stop. (Of the six people in their household, one is biologically connected to me.)) (When do I get to start spending more of what I make on me and starting a new life?)) (I will pay what I owe, but I can't let her lay quilt trips on me and end up paying more.)