Sharon also commented about how little I know about Missoula. (I have been here for almost a year and a half, but I still haven't become a part of the town and the people.)
(5pm) I ate five x-tops and some shrooms, and then I poured myself a VO rocks and opened a beer.
I keep thinking I will get the craving to go out, but it has been a long time since it's come around. (I imagine it will come back around in time, but who knows?)
(6pm) Maybe I will get around to trying to publish "Outlaws and Poets" someday, but I am not going to worry about it now. (I don't know why, but working on putting that all together feels like the right thing to do now. (It fits my budget, keeps my mind active, keeps my mood up, is therapeutic, ….)) (Maybe it's just another escape, but it does feel right. (Am I deceiving myself again?))
I am starting to buzz!
All my pen pals seem to be really happy about my affair with Sharon. (Twas good for me!) (I will have to try and find some way to get another little affair going. (Tis tough on my budget, but other guys manage to pull it off, so ….))
Touching myself feels real good now!
Another positive thing I have noticed lately is I am not worrying about things as much as I used to. (If I can't do something constructive about solving it, I try to forget about it! (And writing seems to be a way to forget about it.)) (Neat.)
(7pm) There is a storm blowing outside. (Neat.)
I unplugged the phone. (I am in no shape to talk to anyone who might dial my number.)
(10pm) Poetry stopped by and said, "Hi ya, Gonzo". (What a fickle lover.)-(I love her none the less though!)
Listening to the storm outside.
Listening to the stories tv is telling.
Telling some stories of my own.
Keeping warm by the fire.
Thankful for what has been.
Curious about what will be.
Content in the experience of now!
(11pm) If any of the above makes no sense, maybe it has been too long since you howled at the moon?
Tis neat finding magic moments, here and there!
5-17-87
(5am) I managed to sleep four hours, and I am feeling good now.