(Noon) Well, I caught up on all the tv shows I had taped.
(3pm) Nice walk.
(4pm) Erica dropped by on her way to work and said hi. (Nice.)
She told me to go to a house party one of the guys from Connie’s is throwing today, but I am still not confident enough to show up at someone's house when they didn't invite me.
(7pm) Enough typing for now.
(11pm) Quiet nite of tv. (Nice.)
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(10am) Laundry time again.
I think Sharon is getting too serious, and I think it's time to end this affair before she gets hurt more and I end up with a lot of guilt that I don't need. (Erica is still encouraging me to continue it, but that may be an outgrowth of being honest about my feelings for her and wanting me to move on to anybody else.)
Sharon finally relaxed enough to get into having her pussy eaten, so I got some practice at that too. (Yum.)
I will give her credit for having at least tried to f me, but within a couple minutes the pain got to be too much for her. (If this continues I will just focus on practicing at giving pleasure. (It made me feel guilty to cause her pain, and I am used to satisfying my own needs!))
(11am) Well, I caught up with all my pen pals again.
Now back to typing.
(4pm) Time for a typing break.
(10pm) Enough typing for today. (Twas a productive day.)
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(8am) Maybe it would help to have friends around to tell me I am ok? (I keep feeling I need to get there alone first, but it's a slow process.) (One reason I think it might help is how it has helped with my work attitude. (I used to be as bad in work situations as I am in social one’s, but I am good there now and part of the why is the reassurance of my peers.)-(Part of it came from within, and was the result of a lot of growing and studying, but interacting with others helped also.))
It looks like it's going to be another beautiful day here. (I enjoy wearing shorts. (One advantage of unemployment is I can suntan, whenever the sun comes along.))
(10am) Time for a typing break.