(7pm) Erica called yesterday and I went out and helped her with her computer problems. (We smoked a bit too and had a nice visit.) (Neat!)
Miranda stopped by yesterday too. (She dropped off some more blank tapes.) (We smoked some, had a brew, and visited. (She is sure pleasant to look at and be with.))
(11pm) Quiet nite of tv and music. (Nice.)
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(Noon) Tis sure nice learning to be alone. (For a long time after my divorce I was afraid of being alone, and spent every nite in the bars. (It's really neat to be free of that desperation!))
(3pm) Nice workout.
Sharon has asked me a couple times why, when I am good at sex and enjoy it so much, did I give it up for so long. (Who knows?) (She also wanted to know why I started now. (Why did she jump me?) (My guess is that I have worked through things enough that women can find me desirable, and I am open enough to let them in.)) (She also wanted to know if she is just a stepping stone. (Yes.) (I have a feeling there are going to be a lot of women wander through my bedroom, before I find someone whom is interested and who interests me. (And, I mature enough to be ready for commitment.)))
She commented on our trip that she had never realized how something as simple as holding hands could be so sensual. (My ex taught me that the whole body is a sex organ, and I try and use all of mine to please my lovers.)
(5pm) Erica stopped by and kept me company for a bit. (She is such a sweetheart.)
I am feeling good and my attitude is pretty good, and I think that I am continuing to improve. (Neat.)
(11pm) Quiet nite of tv and music. (Nice.)
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(2pm) Laundry time again.
(10pm) Quiet evening of tv and music. (Nice.)
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(11am) I am contemplating ending my affair with Sharon. (She is looking for more than I have to offer, and I am worried about hurting her.)
(Noon) I finished this batch of tapes for Miranda. (She had me choose a lot of the music for this batch, and I hope I did ok.)
(3pm) Nice workout. (I finally maxed out on one of the Nautilus machines. (Neat.))