(9pm) I have had enough horror for awhile.
(11pm) Quiet nite. (Nice.)
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(9am) I mentioned to Sharon that I haven't gotten out and seen the countryside around Missoula yet; so she suggested we go for a cruise today. (I am looking forward to getting out on the road and checking things out.)
Tis frustrating being in social situations. (I know I am intelligent, and should be able to find lots to talk about; but my mind goes blank, I freeze up, and end up hardly saying anything.) (Oh well, it’s getting better, and my hermitage seems to be helping.) (I am not sure I will ever be a great talker though. (A lot of what I learn comes from listening, and part of why people like me is that I am a good listener.))
I did get a little frustrated, sexually, by Sharon. (Both nites she left me still wanting more.) (I have to remember that most women don't like as much sex as I do, and I need to give them how much and what they want, and then take care of the rest of my needs after they leave. (I think I will find more loving, in the long run, by focusing on the woman's pleasure and forgetting about my own.))
(7pm) We drove up the west side of Flathead Lake and then back around through Seely Lake. (Beautiful drive!) (We stopped at a small lake along the way and laid out in the sun on the beach, and fucked a couple times. (Maybe it's weird, but fucking in public places always turns me on.)-(Another fifteen minutes and we would have been entertaining a station wagon full of women and kids.)) (Fun day!)
I have noticed that my body has changed since last summer. (My summer shirts are tighter, and my shorts are looser.) (I still have a long ways to go though.)
(8pm) Erica dropped in and visited for awhile. (It sounds like she is having a lot of fun still. (Good for her!))
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(10am) I hope I don't hurt too many women along the way to finding a girlfriend! (If I focus on pleasing them and making it good time, hopefully they won't have too much to complain about.)
One problem I have noticed with focusing on my lover’s pleasure and forgetting my own, with my ex and with Sharon, is they worried they weren't pleasing me. (I don't have to have a lot of orgasms to be pleased. (I derive a lot of pleasure from giving pleasure, touching, and being touched!))
Last nite was a quiet one of tv and music. (Nice.)
I don't seem to have sunburned any vital spots yesterday.
I am still a bit sore. (I suppose I should take a break and let that bruise heal up; but sex comes around so seldom I am going to take it whenever it does.)