I started two new poems tonite. (Neat.)
I finished up Miranda's tapes. (That was fun.)
(4am) There is lots of magic in life. (I have to remember that I will find more of it, if I stop locking the door.)
(11am) I sure got hammered last nite. (And, now I am a bit hungover.)
I will have to save some money so I can celebrate five years of single life on the 26th.
(1pm) Erica stopped by. (She brought me lunch and we had a fun visit.) (Neat.)
I am still concerned that Sharon is looking for something I can't give her, and that I am going to end up hurting her. (Oh well, unless I am willing to hurt and be hurt, I am not living life to it's fullest.) (Use women and try to give them pleasure in return, and someday the magic will return and it will be more.)
I wonder if there is any way to change myself so women don't perceive me as a lousy lay? (As long as that is what they see, I am not going to find many lovers.) (One thing I can easily do is to stop talking about long-term celibacy. (That makes women think I am a lousy lay.))
(4pm) Nice workout.
Although I don't have any great desire for a lot of lovers; until someone I want to try building a more serious relationship comes into my life, there needs to be a lot of lovers in my life. (Not having sex just because I don't have a girlfriend is the pits, and finding a girlfriend just to get sex is desperation and dependency!)-(And, having an active sex life might improve my chances of finding a steady girlfriend.)
(5pm) Sharon called and wants me to come down to the Boardroom to meet her niece. (Sounds like something to do.)
(10pm) The Boardroom is a nice bar for visiting. (Laurie (Sharon's niece)-(They are the same age, and she says they are more like sisters.), is cute, but couldn't stay long.) (Then Sharon and I had a few drinks and visited.) (Then she suggested we go to my apartment, and we played around in the bedroom for a few hours. (That was fun!))
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