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(8am) My business ad started running today. (I wonder what results it will bring?)
The paper says it will be up in the 60's again today. (Amazing.)
(Noon) Good workout.
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(1am) Enough typing.
(10pm) Enough work for today.
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(3am) I ate three x-tops and went down to Hubcaps for a few sets and got pretty shitfaced. (The music and girl watching were a pleasure.)
(10am) Back to work.
(2pm) Erica stopped by for a visit. (Nice.) (I think she is going to be mad at me again. (A lot of what is going on inside of me, ties into still being in love with her; and I think it might help to talk about it. (I have to find some way to get a better fix on reality, and get back in to living life with others again; and I don't seem to be getting there by suppressing those feelings.)))
She has suggested a few times I try out Connie’s bar. (I enjoy the people and atmosphere there; but I just can't deal with going there. (Mostly it's that Erica hangs out there some, and we seem to make each other really uptight, when we are in the same place at the same time.) (Maybe another part of it is that Miranda also hangs out there? (She has neat eyes, and I think she would be fun to spend time with. (But, until I work this thing out with Erica, chasing her sister would make me uncomfortable. (And, right now Miranda is working through a lot of emotions and is adjusting to being single again. (Also, I am just not up to partying that hard now. (And, I think I might be better off looking for someone closer to my age.)))))))
One reason I have for feeling optimistic that I am beginning to mature is the seven weeks I just spent working for the County. (e.g., I talked more than I ever have (And to more people.), and I was self confident in the work place. (I am still having problems in social settings, but hopefully that will come along too.)) (I think the books by Grinder and Bandler, which I read last fall, were helpful in my work. (I wasn't consciously doing it, but when I look back, I can see that I was using a lot of their ideas in training and in trying to establish some informal channels for communication. (I have found that most problems in most environments are most often rooted in poor communications, and often all that is needed to solve them is to get the people talking.)))
(4pm) Michael called and I am going to go over there for a couple brews, and help him a bit with his tax return. (And, his girlfriend has a girlfriend they want me to meet. (Why are people always trying to set me up with women who "could lose a few pounds"?))