I am going to have to find some new topics to study. (Now that I have given up on the sexual puzzle, I need something to occupy my mind.)
(6pm) I wish there were a way to push my body harder and get faster results. (I am stronger now, but I am still weak.)
(11pm) Maybe I am staying home as a solution to sexual frustration? (I have also stopped watching R-rated movies and I avoid looking at women at the Club.) (Tis probably bad, but it does solve the problem of frustration and confusion. (Just give up. (Maybe that is what I have done?)))
12-30-86
(1am) Tis strange being out of pot.
(Noon) Well, no nitemares. (I did remember bits and pieces of a bunch of dreams, and Mr. Happy woke me up three times.) (Now I am stiff and sore. (Probably from the dream where I was racing motocross.)-(Or, maybe the one where my ex showed up where I work and started an argument, and I threw her out on the street?)-(Or, the one where I was jumping down flights of stairs?))
(5pm) Nice walk.
I went and did some more checking on computers today. (If I get one, I am going to load "Outlaws and Poets" onto it. (It may not be publishable, but it's still one of my joys.))
12-31-86
(1am) Quiet nite of reading. (Nice.)
Erica stopped by while I was out for my walk and left me a little bud, so I caught a nice buzz tonite. (She is so sweet.)
(2pm) Nice workout.
(4pm) Nice walk.
(9pm) I can't think of any resolutions.
(11pm) Quiet nite of tv and reading. (Nice.)
1-1-87
(10am) Happy New Year!
I didn't even make it to midnite. (Such a wild and crazy dude.)
Still no nitemares from being without smoke. (Just more bits and pieces of dreams. (Miranda showed up in another? (I almost never think about her, but she has showed up in two dreams.)))