I went down and got an application for a food stamp interview. (I don't particularly like the idea, but starvation isn't one of my favorite pastimes.)
I doubt that I will end living out on the streets again, but then I am really lucky. (I feel sorry for all those who are out there.)
(9pm) Tonite would be a nice one to be snuggling. (Brr!)
12-17-86
(Midnite) Quiet nite.
(3pm) Ok workout. (My repetitions are down a bit.) (I visited with the fellow who does the Nautilus instruction and he says that I have been overdoing it. (Me?))
(6pm) Nice walk.
(9pm) The other side of not talking about my troubles to others and bringing them down is that I need to find a whole new set of topics to talk about.
12-18-86
(Midnite) Quiet nite.
(10am) I have begun to read a little again. (Nice.)
(2pm) I actually did some housework today. (I must be sick.)
(4pm) Erica stopped in for a visit. (Neat.)
I think I will give the old bod a break from walking today.
Sometimes I feel guilty about all the things I have, but after all the hours I have spent working I guess I deserve at least as much as I have.
There are a lot of constraints right now on the jobs I can choose from. (Without nice clothes and a car, there are a lot of positions that I just can't get.)
One thing I will have to remember, if I find a girlfriend, is to leave room for solitude and writing in my life. (These moments have been really rewarding.)
I have bitched about them in the past, but it would be fun to get back on a computer again.
12-19-86
(2am) Quiet nite.
(3pm) Today's workout was ok. (I didn't want to go though.) (My repetitions are still down.) (I lost another seven pounds this week.) (I used to hate cold showers, but right after I come out of the sauna or steam room, I love them now. (Neat new experience.))