Maybe I should stop trying to figure out romance? (All it seems to do is cause frustration and make things worse. (I am probably making the whole thing more complicated than it really is.))
A lot of what I have read the past year on management and business makes me question whether it's true that the trick to sales is objectification of people, gimmicks, and …. (There seems to be evidence that the most successful companies are those that treat their employees and customers like human beings. (I know I have found that to be true in my experiences in business.))
(10am) I am starting to get really weary of being broke.
(1pm) Nice workout.
I took out an ad in the paper today to try and sell my car.
I complain sometimes about not having the money to go out, but I could choose to spend my money differently so I would have a bigger party budget. (I still think that making my home a nice place to live, other forms of entertainment, eating well, …, are good first choices for my extra money.)
Another thing that I have noticed is that the longer it has been since I have had some loving, the less I miss it.
(6pm) Quiet afternoon of solitaire.
(11pm) Quiet nite of music and letter writing. (Neat.)
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(Midnite) If I am not careful, I am going to run out of things to give up.
Conversations with Erica are kind of weird sometimes. (She talks as if I am up on the local gossip and I get lost trying to figure out what and whom she is talking about. (She keeps forgetting that although I live here, she is the only person that I know here.))
I am becoming quite the hermit.
I suppose it's funny to be 36 and still not know how to get laid, but it gets tiresome sometimes when people laugh at me.
I have been daydreaming of another trip to Wallace. (Tis getting about time to scratch that itch again.)
(1pm) I finally got around to typing up a resume and getting some copies run. (Unemployment is beginning to get a bit old.) (And my confidence in my work skills seems to be disappearing.)
(2pm) Well, I am all caught up on my letter writing again.
(6pm) Nice walk.