(6pm) I just finished typing up my journal. (Yeah.)
(10pm) I took myself out to dinner tonite and then went to see "Armed and dangerous".
The two high points of this summer, for me, were the two times I went out to the river with Erica. (Nice memories.)
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(2pm) Erica stopped by and visited a bit. (Company sure is nice!)
One nice thing about staying home is that I get to see Erica now and then. (I do enjoy her company!)
(6pm) One advantage of no girlfriend, that I have noticed, is that my women friends never get as mad at me as they sometimes do at their lovers. And, I never get as mad at them as their lovers sometimes do. (The trade off, of course, is that the good times we have together aren't as much fun, as the times they spend with their lovers.) (By avoiding sex, I have smoothed off the peaks and valleys that go with all relationships. (It would be nice to experience the peaks available with sexual relationships again, but I am not ready to deal with the valleys that go along with it.)
(11pm) I took myself to see "A room with a view" tonite.
I stopped in Corky's for a few brews.
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(4pm) Tis dog time again.
If I ever get around to taking a holiday, I will have to hire someone who is good at playtime to go along and teach me what to do on a holiday.
People tell me that I am intelligent, but I don't feel like I am. (I don't have a high IQ, I am a slow reader, I am slow witted, I am lost in the social and play parts of life, ….) (I have mastered a few things; but I always seem to have to work three times harder than everyone else to get them figured out.)
I have been watching a lot of the R-rated movies on cable tv lately, hoping they might stimulate my libido sufficiently to push me past my fears. (No luck, so far. (I just end up visiting with Rosie more often.))
One reason I think it's obvious that I am uptight in social situations is that my cig consumption goes way up when I go to the bars. (About a pack every three hours, at those times, compared to one every six hours when I am alone.)
Erica is taking off today for a trip up to Canada for a few days. (She sure travels a lot.) (She sure gets pissed at me for being a homebody. (But then she gets pissed at me a lot, about a lot of different things!))
I am not really looking forward to this trip. (Oh well, the money is nice and it will be nice to collect some hugs!)