(9am) The women in Missoula seem to be easier to avoid than the one’s in Bozeman. (So far anyway, the one’s I have run across are less friendly and less willing to make first moves.) (Tis frustrating because I do enjoy the company of women and a hug now and then; but it does insure celibacy.) (e.g., in Bozeman I got asked to dance fairly often, but here the women prefer to dance with each other when guys don't ask.) (Maybe it's me though? (Maybe I am colder now and more skilled at turning women off?))
(10am) Oh yes, one of the new women they have hired at work is getting divorced. (She says most of their fights were over money. (That is a popular fight topic.) (I feel guilty sometimes for saying money is one reason I haven’t found lovers; but, for a lot of women, that is reality. (Kids and living cost lots of money.))-(Which brings me back to wondering whether I avoid money subconsciously as a defense mechanism. (Maybe I remain poor, to keep women away? (e.g., Billie's comment about me being a winner who wants to lose.)))
(6pm) I went for a walk. (The Blues Society was having a little concert at the amphitheater, so I stopped and enjoyed the music and girl watching. (I ran into Ross there, and we bs'd a bit. (He was at Corky's last nite, and he wanted to know if I had gone home with that woman. (He says she is trouble. (I had guessed that much.)))))
(11pm) Quiet nite of tv and music.
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(6pm) Laundry time again.
The fellow I am training at work, just moved here from California. (He commented today on how surprised he was at how many big women there are here. (I wonder if that is true of men too?) (Cunningham always said this was "Big thigh country".))
Charlotte came into the laundromat today while I was there and we had a nice visit. (She is sure a cutie!)
(11pm) Well I am all packed for another trip over to help out the County.
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(4pm) Sitting in the station waiting on the dog. (Such fun.)
Today was busy. (I am training three people.) (I hope the rumors of Mafia connections aren't true about these people I work for here. (It makes me nervous knowing enough about someone to destroy them financially and put them in jail. (Oh well, just get out as quietly and quickly as I can, and find another job.)))
One of the people I am training is the woman who is going through a divorce. (What a pain! (Tis sure hard training someone who is on the verge of crying all day.)) (She has a nice body; but she has a kid, is very romantic and dependent, is narrow minded, and is anti-partying. (I like her ok, but she isn’t someone I would care to spend much time with.))