I still find myself wishing I had chosen to keep my options open and my life uncomplicated by a lot of commitments. (It would be nice to be able to spend my money on now and fun, instead of spending half of my take home on my marriage debts. (I suppose I learned a lot from that time and I am a better man for the experience.)-(And, there are still joys to be found in life without money, so stop feeling sorry about choices I made of my own free will.))
(8am) Beautiful morning.
(10am) I am burned out! (Tis time for a couple days away from computers and numbers!)
(5pm) Tis sun tanning time in Montana again.
I got a letter from Hunter today. (He says he is almost over Carrie, that he has a new steady girlfriend, and that his mom is about to kick him out because he doesn't make it home at nite.) (He says I should be myself with women, but that I have to start taking chances. ("no guts, no girlie"))
I don't know if I could get into the one nite stand version of polygamy, but a few friends and lovers could be nice.
I wish they would start spending more of our tax dollars on research into new contraceptive methods and cures for sexually transmitted diseases! (I suppose the bible thumpers wouldn't allow that to happen though. (They need their witches to burn.))
Another redirection of tax dollars I would like to see is spending less on giving away guns, and more on giving away printing presses and radio stations. (Communication is one of the best weapons against tyranny!)-(I will bet they could end tyranny far faster and more effectively, if they spent the money on teaching Gandhi's political techniques and opening up communication channels!)-(The only problems with that idea are that that is a far mightier weapon than guns and might be turned on them someday; and there is more profit in guns.) (Gandhi was a nitemare to deal with. (He called the government's bluff and through communication got a lot of others to do likewise.))
Oh yes, now I am first and second on the sex part of the video trivia game at Flippers.
(9pm) Erica stopped by and visited for awhile. (Nice.)
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(10am) Last nite I just laid around the apartment and relaxed. (So much fun.) (I don't know what my job and financial situations will be for the next few months, so I am staying home and conserving what I have left. (I am getting tired of poverty.))
I am taking another shot at quitting cigs. (I have been through the worst part of nicotine withdrawal so many times.)-(Then some negative moment comes along, and I slip back into it again.)-(I would save myself a lot of money and the pain of withdrawal, if I would just stay quit. (Or is that another way I punish myself?))
Now for laundry time.