I ran into my friend from Belgrade in Corky's. (One of the bartenders there likes him, so he was there hustling her.) (He pisses off a lot of women, but his ways do work.) (He said he has been partying non-stop since I saw him last. (He made another trip over to Wallace) (He has been partying in Corky's for the last three days with the bartender. (He said she kept buying him drinks and dragging him into the women's can to snort her cocaine)) (By the time we got there last nite, he had been drinking shots for hours. (He was bouncing off the walls, throwing bar stools around, and he got into two fights while we were there.)-(Finally, he got 86'd and I drug him outside before he got in any more trouble.)) (Erica loaned me her car and I drove him to my place. (I tried to get him to crash and get some sleep; but he wanted to dance and fight, and ended up busting out a three-foot section of wall and breaking a table.)-(I finally took him outside and told him to f off.))-(Then I drove Erica's car back to her, and got her to drive me home. (When I got back, he was pounding on my door and yelling; so I let him back in. (This time he passed out.))))
Pretty wild nite. (I enjoyed it all, except the last part.)
Tonite I am supposed to go to a little barbecue some of Erica’s friends are having. (That should be nice.)
Erica was looking beautiful last nite. (Yum!) (She told me about how her and Henry were not meant for each other. (Sometimes I get the feeling that she might be interested in being more than friends, but it's probably just me dreaming again.)-(I have told her how I feel and she will have to make the first move if she decides she is interested.)-(Maybe with her the only way is to be more aggressive than that, but I am not willing to screw up a beautiful friendship to find out.))
I did manage to win $10 on the poker machines last nite. (Twas a nice switch.)
(1pm) I am sure horny today. (Four visits with Rosie so far, and tis time for another.)
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(4am) The barbecue was delish, and the company was nice.
Erica was working tonite, so I stopped in and visited with her after the barbecue/
Then I went to the Hat. (I met an older woman (around 60) named Gabriella at the Hat. (She says she has been going there for fifteen years. (She said that when she first started going there the bartender told her she was too old for the place.)) (Interesting lady.) (She said she has "flushed more kids down the toilet than most women could think of." (She says drinking and the rhythm method just don't work out.))
I got asked to dance twice tonite. (Erica was just telling me I would never dance again unless I asked.)-(Tonite was the exception. (Most nites I end up sitting alone.))
Erica keeps telling me to stop being shy. (How does one do that?) (I have met a lot of people in bars over the years, but it was because I was a good listener.)-(Most of my friends are good talkers, so it kind of works out.) (How does one change such a long-standing and deep-rooted pattern of behavior?)-(How does one learn new behavior patterns?)-(What are the new behaviors patterns I should chose?)