Last nite I took it easy and crashed early. (I needed that. (Meeting women was a lot of work.))
I thought of one solution to being up for sex when the bars close. (When I have done speed and whisky in the past I got aggressive, very horny, and had enough energy to stay up until dawn. (The problems with it were that:
1. I got so obnoxious I always ended up pissing off all the women and I went home alone.
2. I drank more than normal, which was expensive.
3. It was annoying going home and needing to visit with Rosie four or five times before I could find sleep.)
(I always figured it would be fun to try that when I had a girlfriend, but I am not sure it would help in finding her in the first place.))
(1pm) I am not doing to swift at forgetting about sex am I? (Tis hard to forget about a part of life that feels so good.) (Especially when I am falling in lust every time I turn around, and I am horny all the time! (So frustrating!))
(3pm) I got a call from the County and I am going to go over and do some contract work for them next week. (It will be nice to have some extra money.)
(7pm) I stopped in Flippers after work and visited with Erica for a bit. (Nice.) (I am in lust with the other bartender who was working tonite. (Erica says she is "young and naive". (As long as it's all just fantasy, so what?)))
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(9am) I mentioned feeling a bit guilty about Wallace, and she said I shouldn't feel sorry for those women. (They are the only women willing to be my lovers, and I care about them. (But if they stopped, I wouldn't have any lovers, so ….)
We also continued our argument about dating. (I still don't see what is so horrible about telling women I would like to go out with them, and letting them call me to set up the time. (That has worked with my women friends, and I don't think it's a big part of why I don't find lovers.))