Notes from the ozone:
1. Isn't dependency, needing to "have" someone or something in order to feel "good"?
2. Monstakas is right about solitude being good for one's soul, but it has to be blended, over time, with companionship; just as what we get from books must be blended with what we discover out on the streets.
3. I think f'ing around at work is sheer stupidity. (Maybe, if you have really fallen for someone and you go about it very slowly and cautiously; it might be worth the risk, but maybe not even then.)
7-11-85
(10pm) I got a letter from Erica. (I get the feeling that she has been concerned that telling me no was going to end our friendship. (No.)) (She is a positive and wonderful part of my life, and my best friend! (I just have to find some way to put my feelings in a more appropriate context.))
7-14-85
(8am) I seem to be getting behind with my writing.
Samantha and Leo broke up and got back together again, so far this week.
I got a letter from Hunter and it sounds like he is being a good boy in Milwaukee.
As the courthouse turns: One of the women from work showed up at my door last nite and tried to convince me that there was such a thing as just for the fun of it. (If there was, I would have done her, but there isn't. (I think she would be a lot of fun to play with.))
Maybe the answer to the paradox of Jess Lair's perception of the strength of sexual
bonding and the inability of the human animal to abstain for long is to change social
conditioning so that sex doesn't act as such a strong bond?
I have talked to a few people who have married their best friends. (Their experiences were as bad as my experience with letting lust choose.) (I suppose it has to be some blending of the two.)
(1pm) For the last week, I have definitely had a problem doing anything. (I have read little and written less.) (Mostly I have spent my time thinking and walking.)-(But, now I am having trouble getting psyched up for today's walk. (Time to start pushing myself again.))
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