Quotes:
Clark E. Moustakas, "Loneliness"-
"Existential loneliness is an intrinsic and organic reality of human life in which
there is both pain and triumphant creation emerging out of long periods of
desolation."
"The emphasis on conformity, following directions, imitation, being like others, striving for power and status, increasingly alienates man from himself."
(7pm) Marilyn French says sex, in and of itself, isn't
depraved or wrong; and that the instances where it can be bad don't have anything to do
with sex, but are associated with violence. (That seems to fit what I have seen.)
7-7-85
(8am) Note from the ozone: If sexual monogamy is impossible, then sexual polygamy is an imperative. (Celibacy isn't healthy.)
I walked up to the park with Samantha yesterday. (We ran into a bunch of "screamers" (Samantha's name for under age girls.), who go to school with Joe. (That seems a bit too young to be hanging out with the party crowd.))
(10pm) Samantha stopped in for a minute, but mostly I have been reading some more.
I gave myself another haircut tonite. (Skinhead again.)
7-8-85
(Noon) Happy "37" months of celibacy to me.
Quotes:
Monstakas-"... direct facing of one's loneliness with courage, letting be all that is in its fullness, this is a requirement of creative living."
"The lonely sufferer helps himself to a fuller realization of self, not by reducing his sense of pain and isolation, but by bringing its full extent and magnitude to consciousness."
(4pm) Cunningham stopped by the office today and shot the shit for awhile with me.
7-10-85
(4pm) Monday nite Carrie called me and cheered up my day. (She is so sweet.)
Samantha called and invited me over to Leo's, so I went over there and bs'd about music with Leo. (I learned a lot.)
Yesterday was mostly blasé.