I can relate to Paul McCartney's tune "I can wait another day."
I am still finding myself dreaming about my relationship with Erica growing into more. (My intuition tells me that she just wants to be friends, but she never says so. (Or is it not intuition, but my self-doubts speaking?)) (Or is she saying so and I am just too blinded to hear it?) (I have run into situations before where women didn't come right and tell me to shove off. They had expected me to pick up on whatever nonverbal signals they were sending. (I get really confused if it isn’t laid out clearly for me. (Another sign of my immaturity in the area of relationships.)))
I do tend to run away a lot, but every time I stand my ground or try to assert myself, I seem to get blown out of the water.)
It sure would be nice to be able to afford to go skiing.
Another of my puzzles is why, if she isn't interested, hasn't Erica responded to my questions about why I am undesirable to women? (If she weren't interested, wouldn't she be providing me with advice and encouragement in finding a girlfriend?)-(Or is she just putting up with me?) (Or afraid of me?) (So confusing.) (I know I am too sensitive about rejection, but not that bad. (In fact, I have grown used to it. (It isn’t so bad once you get used to it.)))
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