2-22-94
(6am) I slept shitty! (Insomnia and I am having terrible heartburn.) (I think I am just nervous about going back to work.)
Dreams:
1. I am on the interstate with Arthur. He is driving and his truck breaks down. We pull into a roadside gas station that takes VISA cards. Then something about making music tapes for them.
2. I am in the personnel office at work and the cop that just had a heart attack is there. We argue about who is hurting worst.
3. I go to work and fall asleep. When I wake up it’s 5.30 and everyone is gone.
4. Both kids are living with me. Another miserable situation. Something about D O chasing large rodents.
(1pm) I worked half a day today. (I am pooped!)
2-23-94
(7am) I woke up four or five times, but at least I was able to get right back to sleep.
Dreams:
1. I go to Bozeman and I am going to try ski jumping. I watched lessons being given, talked with people who worked there, and had myself psyched up to try. Then I go for a ride with my ex and another woman. We delivered plants to people up Springhill Road (where I lived right after the divorce). The other woman screwed them out of a six pack of beer. When they dropped me off, I had lost the will to try ski jumping. I ran into the other woman at a bar. I am afraid of her, so I buy her a bottle and ditch her. (I wonder if the two women represent my ex’s two personalities?)
2. I am in bed with Carrie and her beau. She says they have an open relationship and that we will go have sex after he falls asleep.
2-23-94
(Noon) I ran into Gwynn at work. (She is coming down to City Hall to check the list of businesses in town for leads for selling advertising.) (She seems ok.)
I got a letter from Carrie. (She is still uptight about not getting any job offers.)
(6pm) Carly stopped by and bs’d a bit.
2-24-94
(7am) Another lousy nite for sleep.
Dreams:
1. Something about a woman I knew in Bozeman. She has two identical sisters. I am in lust with her.
2. Something about sex with my ex.