Here is an interesting coincidence: My last payment on the back child support will by July 5th. July 5th is also the ninth anniversary of my divorce being final. (And, both being so close to Independence Day is also interesting.) (Hopefully by the 10th anniversary I will be getting laid more regularly!) (Twas about nine years from the time I met my ex until we got divorced, so she has been out of my life for about as long as she was in it. (Mary says it tends to take two years to recover from a year in an abusive relationship. Hopefully it won’t take another nine years to heal and recover from that nitemare!))
(11pm) Quiet nite. (Nice!)
I have been pondering again.
My experience with lovers, since my divorce, has been that they want less in terms of quantity and variety than I do; yet I read articles saying women in my age group are at their sexual peak. (I have been told I was different in bed than expected, so maybe women read my mask and figure I am a lousy lay; then the women who are attracted are one’s looking for a lousy lay?) (I do hide my child aspect and playful sides, and reveal little about myself to people who don’t make an effort to get to know me.)
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(Noon) Carly called looking for gambling coupons.
(2pm) Erica, Miranda and Joey stopped by and bs’d awhile. (Neat!)
Twas nice seeing Miranda and Joey!
Erica’s pool team won the year end tournament again. (Good for them!)
(4pm) I caught up on letter writing again. (I have been procrastinating again lately.)
(6pm) Erica stopped by for a bowl and a brew. (Neat!)
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(6pm) Carrie had asked me to pick up some herbs she wants to try. (Erica picked them up and dropped them off today.) (I will have to get them in the mail tomorrow!)
Carrie says her periods late. (She had sex again, so she is worried about being pg. (She was at the low point in her fertility cycle and she used jelly, so hopefully it’s just anxiety that is causing her to be late.)) (She says she was scheduled to start the pill, but has to wait for her period to begin.) (Because of the hepatitis C having more kids is out of the question, so hopefully it’s a false alarm!)