(8pm) I am a bit upset about something this evening. (My guess is it’s the potential that part of my financial problems will go away. (Part of me is relieved and happy; but it would mean that I can go out one nite a week to the Hat, and that is triggering the fear. (Being poor has been a big part of my defense mechanisms.))) (Maybe I should start with Wallace and try to get over the sexual aversion first?)
7-31-90
(6pm) If my dad can negotiate a settlement, the timing is good. (This is the time of year when it should be easiest to work on making it out the door. (First I have been going to budget meetings for months and I am used to spending some time around people. (From now until February I won’t go to many meetings, and my condition will be deteriorating again as the months of working on desensitizing myself in meetings slips away.))-(Second, historically my craving for finding a girlfriend increases in the autumn.)) (I have learned much and grown as a result of my time as a hermit, but I need to be traveling different roads.)
(7pm) Samantha called and bs’d a bit. (They got a volleyball net for the reception.) (They are moving to Harlowton a few days after the wedding, so it’s a going away party too.) (She says the girl watching will be good.)
(11pm) The Council budget meeting finally got over. (I hate working nites!)
8-1-90
(9pm) Erica stopped by for some dominos. (Neat!)
8-2-90
(11pm) Quiet nite. (Nice!)
8-3-90
(11pm) Erica stopped by for a couple games of dominos. (Neat!)
8-4-90
(10am) It sounds like Veronica is still playing games. (Someone that vengeful and crazy needs to be avoided!)
Erica was mad at Dell for stopping by her place late, but she has been doing a lot of running and hiding and that may be the only time to catch up with her.
8-6-90
(Midnite) Erica drove over to Bozeman with me. (I got her to drive, so I could enjoy the scenery and party.)
Twas nice seeing Carrie and meeting her boys! (They all seem to be doing ok. (Relief!))
The wedding was nice and the reception was fun. (I ran into a lot of people from the Paw days. (I hate to admit it but I had forgotten most of their names.)) (The girl watching was great!)