Once again I couldn’t get psyched up to turn on the computer and work on writing chores. (Spending 40 hours a week staring into a computer screen at work takes a toll! (I needed to get away from it for awhile.))
I didn’t do any house cleaning either. (What a lazy bum!)
(10pm) Tiredness!
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(6am) Monday again. (Boo!)
I really didn’t want to get up today!
D O is unhappy too. (She thinks she wants to go out and play!)
(7am) I think I will keep skipping r-rated movies. (A lover would be nice, but I am obviously not ready to even begin trying!)-(I get horny way too much, without any reminders! (Reminders are just frustrating and depressing!)) (Maybe someday I will be good enough for sex?)
I suppose I should get dressed.
(5pm) Busy day!
Per normal, spending four days home alone made work and people more difficult to cope with!
(6pm) Erica stopped by for bowl and a brew on her way to shoot pool. (Neat!)
She says she got some alone time, to think things through. (Good for her!)
(8pm) Nice workout! (Waiting until after 6pm seems to work out good.)
(9pm) I seem to have more energy after the Club. (It helps to get moving, rather than plopping down in front of the tv!)
(11pm) Tiredness!
I can relate to "Struggle for intimacy" by Janet Geringer Woititz on a lot of different levels.
(In some ways being the child of a schizophrenic is similar to being a child of an
alcoholic.)-(And, being married to an alcoholic whose parents were alcoholics let me see
that from a lot of different angles.)-(My mother’s dad was a bootlegger, owned a
speakeasy and was an alcoholic, so she was a child of an alcoholic too.)
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(7am) Twas hard dragging myself out of bed! (Tis so comfortable and warm under the covers!)
D O came up with a new one this morning. (I was soaking in the tub and resting my eyes, when I feel her climbing onto my chest and demanding that I scratch her head.) (I would like to think she wanted some attention from me, but I imagine she just wanted me to let her out.)