Erica says that Gwynn has been driving without any insurance. (She still hasn’t paid her last dui, so there is probably a warrant out on her for that.) (What a nitemare!) (I wonder if she is still on the Valium and booze binge she was on this summer?)-(When she gets started, she can’t stop.)-(She reminds me some of my ex.) (It gets old hearing someone tell the same stories over and over. (She blacks out and doesn’t remember what she has said or what others have said.)) (She has tremendous potential, and she has done a lot to improve herself the past few years; but she seems to keep sabotaging herself.) (I hope she figures it out one of these days!)
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(7am) TGI payday!
(6pm) Erica stopped by for a visit. (Neat!)
It sounds like she has been having another bad day! (Sad!) (As the Bob Seger song says, "Take a lesson from the trees!")
(8pm) Well, I made it to the Club after work for the first time. (Yeah!) (I think I will like going in the evenings.) (There are a lot more people, but I got through my routine in the same amount of time as in the morning.) (Twas nice being able to take my time in the soak and sweat area!) (Tis nice being able to go hi again! (Feels good!))
One advantage of where the grow room is, is that I am producing the carbon dioxide that the plants need to flourish. (Conversely, the oxygen level in the bedroom should be higher than normal.)
Erica says there are a lot of lesbians in her pool league. (Whatever gets someone through the nite is ok by me! (Or, as Samantha says, "Whatever blows their skirts up is ok."))
(9pm) This week is going fast. (Two more days and then another four day weekend.) (Great!)
Sometimes saying nothing is a good first step!
The grow room will smell some in a few months, but the incense should cover that. (The thing that is hard to hide is the lite.)
Erica is bugging me again about cleaning. (I suppose.)
I picked up another case of computer paper. (This weekend I will try again to get into editing and typing. (Get those jobs behind me!))
I think going to the Club in the evening and trying to stay up later will be good for me. (Keep trying new ways!)
(10pm) Erica has been partying a lot! (It kills the pain for awhile and helps some with the transition.) (Twas a weird time for me! (I had lived in Bozeman for over three years, but I hadn’t gone out or met many people before my divorce. I was starting from scratch and it was a lot like I had just arrived there. (Twas a hard time, a fun time, a learning time, a sad time, ….))) (It will pass!)-(The trick is to not do something too stupid.)