I am having a hard time getting seeds to sprout. (This entire batch died too.) (I am doing something wrong, but what?)
(7pm) I told Erica to look for older single women for me, while she is out being single. (She probably won’t find anyone, but it doesn’t hurt to ask.) (Oh well, I would probably just screw it up anyway. (My unconscious always seems to intercede and do something that will keep me single and safe. (Tis frustrating, but it’s also pretty funny!)))
(8pm) Erica stopped by for a bowl and a brew. (Neat!)
She was pretty wound up tonite.
(10pm) Tiredness!
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(7am) I am going to work 15 minutes later, since I quit cigs, but I seem to have less time in the morning.
(6pm) Busy day!
The craving for cigs has been worse today. (Annoying!) (I wonder if it’s really getting worse, or is my will power lower now?)
I sure ran late this morning! (I have to start getting ready for work, before I get into the paper.)
I keep forgetting my pills, so I don’t know if they do any good. (How would I know anyway? (I never go anywhere social to test the anxiety levels.))-(Maybe save them until next summer when I try the bars again?)
I am continuing with my increased walking and avoiding pop and candy. (Right now I am starving!)
(8pm) Erica stopped by for a visit. (Neat!)
She says she has been doing some dating. (Good for her!) (She has more guts than I do!)
I don’t think I will stir things up and try to reopen the divorce decree. (From what Miranda’s friend says, the only thing I could change is the current child support and that isn’t the problem.)
Another ballot issue is a bottle bill that would require a deposit on bottles and cans. (Part of me thinks it’s a good idea.)-(Another part knows that a lot of transients live off of collecting stuff to take to the recycling center, and they would lose much of that income.) (Nothing is ever good for everyone.) (I guess the trick is to look for the option that does the most good for the most people.)
Exercise does do a good job of helping with stress and anxiety. (Sometimes it’s nice to dull the pain with something though! (That is why I smoke pot! (It makes being alone a bit nicer!)))