(8pm) Let’s see, besides having an ex who is a narc, working for the court, and hanging out with a lot of prosecutors and cops; Beth used to work for the Sheriff’s office and said she once was thinking about trying for a job with the DEA. (Also, she told me a story the other day about how some guy was flirting with her one day. Then he tried to bum four bits off of her. Her response was to turn him over to the cops for panhandling. (The judge gave him the option of 90 days in jail or leaving Montana and never coming back. (He left Montana.))) (She is cute, mostly I like her, and she is funny; but I would guess she could be really mean and vindictive too.) (I was bent over her computer working on Tuesday and she hit me pretty hard on the back. One of the prosecutors was there and commented about it. Beth said she wouldn’t hurt me now because she needed my help.) (Today another prosecutor was walking through the Court and she grabbed hold of his tie and jerked him around with it. (She may have thought it was a clip on. (He once told me that a prisoner had grabbed his tie and started choking him. (After that he switched to wearing clip ons.)))) (She has a daughter.) (She says she almost never cooks, and eats most of her meals at McDonalds.) (From what she says she spends a lot of time in bars and fucks around a lot.)
(10pm) Tiredness!
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(5pm) Busy day!
I caught up with Miranda at the end of today’s lunch walk, and asked her what was bothering her. (She didn’t know what I was talking about. (I wonder why Erica thought Miranda was upset?)) (Maybe Miranda just didn’t want to talk about it and lied?)
I had a stiff neck last nite and it’s back again now. (Annoying!)
(6pm) I wonder if what I call happy is what others call happy? (Relative to the rest of my life, now is by far the happiest time; but maybe it isn’t really close to how happy I could be? (Maybe it just appears like happiness compared to the intense blackness I have experienced in the past?))
(8pm) One reason I avoid the doctor is worrying that drugs will show up in the tests and the City will somehow find out.
Going without smoke last nite didn’t bring any dreams. (Maybe tonite.) (I wonder what I am dreaming about and forgetting when I wake up?)
All the bosses are up in Kalispell for a conference. (Nice!) (Tis amazing how much more work gets done without them getting in the way!)
I got the Court squared away with their new software. (There is one more phase to implement but they have to get more hardware and figure out the logistics of that first.)
Now I am helping Engineering out with the new computer design system they are buying. (Mostly I am working with Rosemary and Grace. (Grace is neat! (She is about my age.)-(She is the graphics design person for the planners.)-(She wears a lot of clothes with neat combinations of colors and designs.)-(She has a beau. (Oh well, I would never find the courage to ask her out, even if she were unattached.)))
(9pm) Erica stopped by to visit. (Neat!)