Beth didn’t call. (Relief!)
(6pm) I dumped what was in the bottom of my stash box into a pipe and smoked it. (It looked pretty gross, but I caught a bit of a buzz.)
(8pm) One of these weekends I need to take all the pictures down and wash the walls! (And, take the drapes in and get them cleaned.)
(9pm) Quiet nite. (Nice!)
I watched "Martin Mull’s portrait of a white marriage." (Pretty cute!)
Well, it’s almost Monday again. (Boo!)
9-12-88
(5am) I woke up with D O lying on my chest.
I didn’t talk much about sex when I was married. (We were too busy doing it.)
I talk a lot about things that my ex taught me and things that I have read in books, but I don’t think sex is a time for thinking. (Think and talk about it other times, but when it’s happening one should flow with the moment.)-(Thinking just messes it all up!) (I have done it so much it is unconscious behavior now.)
(7am) Nice workout! (My repetitions dropped some this time. (Probably because I have walked so little this past week.))
I think I will quit cigs sooner than I planned. (I have got enough for a week or so and I think I will try again when I run out.) (I will have to give up the break room when I quit, so I will have to find some other way to work on my phobias. (Maybe I will start going to the Club every morning. (There is rarely anyone to talk to, but at least it’s getting out of the apartment.)))
Diabetes would explain the shakes I get sometimes. (And fits with how they have gotten better since I have been exercising and eating better.)
(5pm) Busy day!
I had to scrape the windows of the truck this morning before going to the Club.
If I do have diabetes, I will have to change my eating habits.
Beth said she looked for me at Luke’s Friday. (Oh well!)
I switched from coffee to water at 10am today and skipped pop. (I am consuming too much caffeine and I need to cut back.)
If I have diabetes, I wonder if part of the high anxiety is related to that?