Erica was remembering things from her past tonite. (Sometimes that experience cuts like a knife, but it reveals things one needs to come to terms with!)
I feel sorry for Linda! (Paul has to trust her and accept her for who she is, or she will start looking for someone else! (If you have to pay for cheating every day, you eventually decide to have the fun you are being punished for.))
(9pm) I definitely caught a buzz! (Nice!)
Hopefully Miranda will find someone to love, but some time alone now might be good for her. (Danny is in a lot of pain, and I am not sure she is ready to deal with that.)-(Maybe it will work out though.) (If they can make it through until fall, they will probably make it at least a few more months. (Tis nice to have someone to snuggle with when it gets cold!))
I think that Jim loves Charlotte, and he is good for her, but he needs some space. (And trust!)-(And for her to accept him for who he is!)-(And, for him to accept she needs some help and that he needs to help her get it!) (Maybe he has put up with all he can though.)
I wonder if part of why Jim works so many hours is to escape home? (I know I spend a lot of time at school and work (Those were the only ways I could escape and I embraced them.))
I can’t deal with this movie.
(10pm) Tiredness!
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(5am) I am not in any hurry to meet more women now. (I have got to change myself before I will be good for anyone, and I would rather that no one meets me now. (I would just push them away and sabotage any hope of a relationship.))
There were a lot of reasons I stayed too long with my ex. (Twas very nice getting laid regularly. (I have never been any good at finding dates, let alone lovers; and I knew that leaving meant giving up sex.)-(I have learned to become content without sex, but at the time I didn’t want to give it up.)-(As she used to comment, I was "pussy simple".)) (Besides that, I had been taught that you stay married and find a way to work it out, I enjoyed being with the kids, the money problems, worrying that she would commit suicide, and ….)
D O just showed up. (I am going to have to break her of the habit of staying out all nite before winter. (If I leave the bathroom window open all nite then, the plumbing will freeze up.)) (Leaving the bathroom window open for her was Erica’s idea, so maybe I should ask her for ideas on how to break D O’s habit of staying out all nite.)
Erica says Linda has been telling lies to Paul about where she is when she goes out partying with Erica. (If he goes out and drives around, he would know that her car was parked downtown in front of the bar.) (If she is going to tell lies, she should make sure they are one’s that aren’t easy to get tripped up by. (e.g., if she is going to use a "gone for a drive" story, she should stash her car somewhere it won’t be seen.)) (Actually, they need to work it out so there is trust and acceptance of each other, and get past the lies. (The lies just postpone the reality of needing to come to terms with their problems.))