Another way I turn people off is by teasing. (I make fun of myself and tease me, and I do it to others sometimes as well. I am not very good at it though and I tend to offend sometimes when I intended to amuse. (Maybe it’s that I am generally pretty serious, and when I tease people they think I am being serious? (e.g., once my ex told me there wasn’t anything I could say that would bother her. So, meaning to be funny, I told her she should shave her legs more often. She took it seriously, was upset for hours and was self conscious about that for the rest of the marriage.)))
3-17-88
(6am) Happy St Pats day!
(7am) When I did that one contract job in Billings, I stayed out every nite until 3 or 4am, and was at work at 8am. (I was 30 and had more endurance and resilience, but that took a toll on my health! (I hadn’t been to a bar in seven years and I was burned by all the years of torture my ex had subjected me to. (I just went a bit crazy and blew off some of the steam that had been building up.))-(I think it was a turning point in my life. (I wore a beard then, I weighed 315, and smoked about a half carton of cigs a day, on top of the alcohol consumption and little sleep.)-(Two years later I was down to 240, had cut back to two packs of cigs a day, and was newly divorced.)))
One of the ways I paid for the leg shaving comment was that my ex tried nair. (I had an allergic reaction. (My hips broke out in open sores from where her legs gripped my body when we fucked.))
Maybe the work excuse doesn’t really work with Daphne. (She works for a different department in a different building and we don’t have much contact.)
I suppose the answer to work and women is to do what is happening with Lauren. (Each week we visit a little and get to know each other better. (Just build friendships slowly and wait to see what evolves, if anything.))
D O jumped onto my back while I was shaving and crawled up on my shoulders. (Ouch!) (I guess I better start wearing a shirt while I shave.)
My guess about the popularity of "Dirty dancing" is that it has tapped into the new romanticism a lot of people are getting into.
Maybe it isn’t clear from what I say, but I do like Gwynn. (She reminds me of myself in a lot of ways.)
(5pm) Busy day! (Nice!)
I got a $48 insurance refund, so I am rich. (Neat!)
I had another nice chat with Lauren today and I helped her a bit with one of her projects.
My walkman finally died. (I will have to replace that this weekend.)