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(2am) I went to the Down Under. (The music and girl watching were great!) (I did well with smiling and keeping my body language open, but I failed miserably with first moves. (So what else is new?))
I ran into the guy who lives next door and he started a conversation with me. (I have lived next door to him for a year and a half and I had never talked to him.) (He thought I was married?)
After the bar I treated myself to breakfast at 4B's. (Yum!)
I started a couple more poems tonite. (Neat!)
Carrie has been on my mind a lot lately. (I miss her!)
I am pretty horny tonite! (I wish I could chase! (Frustrating!))
It occurs to me that I have slipped back into talking about time with Rosie again lately. (Carrie had chewed me out about that, and I had been trying to stop talking about that.)
Even if I did feel up to chasing women at work, I don't know who I would chase. (I am in lust with a lot of the women there, but I don't know any of them well enough to figure out who I would like to spend time with out of bed.)
D O is pissed at me now. (She expects me to spend my evenings at home with her.)
Again there weren't any women at the Down Under who were within ten years of my age. (I love the music, but I suppose it's hiding to go there.) (The guy from next door told me that the older women hang out at Luke’s and suggested I hang out there.) (I think I will wait and see what the Top Hat is like when it reopens.)
My sexual aspect still gets hot and bothered when I am around Carly. (Annoying!)
(9am) I feel good.
(11am) Now D O is being friendlier than normal.
(Noon) A couple years back I mentioned to Carrie that Erica didn't think Wallace was a good idea for me. Carrie's response was that, if Erica didn't like how I was taking care of that need, she should take care of it herself. (Maybe that is the proper response to Carrie's complaints about me talking about visits with Rosie?) (For anyone who hasn't figured out who Rosie is, listen to Jackson Browne's song of the same name.)
(1pm) D O was going crazy to get out, so I opened the back door. (The place needed some airing out anyway.)
I watched one r-rated movie last nite and now I am watching my x-rated video. (The dialogue is pretty bad, so I have started turning the tv's sound down and turning the stereo on while I am watching that video.) (Keep working on desensitizing myself to sex and trying to take it less seriously.)