Most of why I slipped up with Sharon was timing. (I hadn't given myself a massage in a long time, and I was doing that and watching my x-rated video when she stopped by.) (I feel a little bad because she wants a relationship with me, and all I want from her is conversation and a fuck. (On the other hand, she gets far more pleasure out of it than I do, so maybe it balances out?))
She wants me to tape some albums for her. (That will be fun.)
She wants me to work on my phobias so I can go places with her. (That is a reason not to overcome them.) (Oh well, I can't afford to go anywhere anyway.)
D O just jumped on my lap and demanded to be petted, so I better take a writing break.
(7am) I haven't paid the power and phone bills since November, so I better send them some money from my next paycheck. (What a stack of bills!)-(Hopefully I will get caught up by February.)
I am going to wait a little while longer on starting up child support payments again. (Get some of my survival bills caught up first.) (I will send the health insurance card to my ex though, so she can get Bryan that operation.)
I have just about finished with the analysis of the computer bids, so hopefully we can get those ordered next week. (Once I get that done, the Council has to look it over and vote on it.)
Until the Parks Department people get me some more cost figures, there isn’t much more I can do on the water slide deal. (It has always bugged me to have to set things aside while I wait on more information, but that happens a lot in this line of work.)
Erica says Gwynn thought I was making good money now. (I guess, compared to no job, it is; but my spendable income is just enough for survival. (I am still years away from paying off my marriage. (Until then, I won't have much money for playtime.)))
It sounds like Erica and Gwynn have worked out their differences. (For now anyway.)
Still no word from Carrie. (I suppose she is still pissed at me.)
I am not in the mood for work today.
This weekend I think I will start typing on the ninth addition to "Outlaws and Poets" again. (Catch up a little on that project.)
I wonder when poetry will return? (It would be nice to finish this stack I have started and write some new one’s.)
I will have to buy some JD and shrooms one of these weekends and get myself fucked up. (Maybe that would trigger some poetry.)
I still haven't rewritten my cover letter and sent out the sample of "Feelings" to another publisher yet. (The joys of procrastination!)
Work is still about all the contact with people I can cope with.