I am turning off women at work by:
1. Saying "I am a worker and I don't play."
2. Cigs
3. Being rude some days.
4. Saying I never date.
5. Saying I enjoy living alone.
6. Never flirting.
7. Not dancing at the Xmas party.
8. Refusing to be on the City's basketball and volleyball teams because I am clumsy and never play.
9. …
(I am an expert at turning women off!) (At least this time it has been a conscious effort, rather than my unconscious mind sabotaging my conscious mind efforts to turn women on. (For now I need to stick with building friendships, and that is happening slowly.) (Tis tricky to find the balance between pushing women far enough away to shut off any potential for romance, but keep them close enough to build a friendship.))
I went over my finances yesterday and I can't afford a trip to Bozeman now.
(10pm) Quiet nite. (Nice!)
I finished up the tapes for my sister and got them ready to mail. (Better late than never, I guess.)
I wrote a letter to Carrie.
12-22-87
(6am) Actually it will be kind of nice spending the holiday alone again. (Tis my tradition!) (And, I can use the break from people. (Work is taking a toll.))
Maybe I will do shrooms Saturday nit.
(7am) D O's new trick is to climb on my shoulder while I am taking a shit. (Pretty weird!)
I am in a better mood today.
I like the Dead song "Push comes to shove". ("You are afraid of love" (That is me!))
(5pm) Work went ok.
According to the 1980 census, there are almost exactly the same number of men and women in Missoula. (So why are the odds in the bars so different?)
I was rude to Lauren again today.
(9pm) Quiet nite. (Nice!)
12-23-87
(5am) Well, my morning chores are done and now I am waiting for the newspaper.