11-18-87
(8am) The pill is another tough issue. (I am glad that is one puzzle I don't have to worry about. (The joy of sterility!)) (Tis Erica's problem though. (Her problem with endometriosis has been a constant battle and a lot of pain, and they have had her on the pill among other things for a long time. (The doctors have suggested surgery, but she is trying to avoid that.)))
I love magazines. (When I get some money I will have to get more subscriptions.)
Carly doesn't take very good care of her dog. (Makes me wonder how well she takes care of the man in her life.)
This job will help my situation, but I will have to keep looking for something better. (Keep collecting experience and making contacts.) (I think in time the Missoula economy will improve and it will pay off then. (Then again, I have been telling myself that for eight years about the Montana economy.))
Erica is talking about looking for typing jobs to do on the side. (That way she would have more control over how much she does and when she does it.)
Line from "Mike Hammer" this week on tv: "That is what I like about women. No two are alike." (I will have to keep working on accepting that at the unconscious level.)
I know it will take time for me to work up to a better paying job, and that I have to start low. (It will come in time.) (For now. all that is really important to me is a job where I can survive on half the take home pay.) (There are women who won't care about the money, and will enjoy dates of watching tv and such.)
Time to plug back into the computer.
(8pm) Enough typing for today. (I overdid it today. (Oh well, I put a big dent in the pile of pages to be typed.))
(11pm) Quiet nite. (Nice!)
11-19-87
(1pm) Time for a typing break.
Oh yes, last week the shrink commented that I talk about myself like a "case study". (I think that is a valid observation.) ("Experimental subject" might be valid too. (I have run all sorts of little experiments over the years to more clearly define my problems.))
Tis neat Erica and Charlotte are spending more time together. (They have such a rocky relationship; the moments when they are getting along are precious.)
(4pm) The shrink went ok today. (He says that what I need now is to be social and work on getting used to being with people.) (That was the last session.)
(7pm) Enough typing for today!