Something is bothering her, but she is holding it in and won’t talk about it. (Until she decides which way she is going to go, maybe it's best to leave that dialogue within herself. (Ultimately it's her decision and life, and she has to choose for herself without others influencing her choice.))
It sounds like Gwynn is pushing too hard on the exercise, but maybe it's just her excuse for withdrawing for awhile? (I can relate to that need!)
I think I will like doing the Club in the morning before work. (After work there is a crowd and it takes longer to workout. (Also, when I tried working out after work in Bozeman, I ended up too tired to do anything but cook, eat and veg out on the couch.))
I am going to have to invest a lot of energy into being social soon, and start on my phobias.
It will be neat having all of "Outlaws and Poets" loaded into the computer, and being caught up before going back to work. (That is the time consuming part!) (Then start editing a little at a time. (I am going to try not to be quite so obsessive about that in the future.))
I think there are more advantages in knowing lots of people, than disadvantages.
Tis nice to have learned how to entertain myself! (Boredom, loneliness, depression, …, seldom bother me now.) (Mostly I am content and happy, and that is neat!)
Some people who fuck off at work have annoyed me, but Linda never did. (I think she made up for it by keeping me entertained.)
(7pm) Enough typing for today! (Tis nice stopping before my mind is fried!)
It sounds like Erica had a fun weekend! (Good for her!)
I think the addition from Erica's letters I am typing up now may be the longest yet.
It will be nice getting a cat. (That is a way to make another commitment and practice that.) (And, the company would be nice.)-(And, the touching.)
The only book I have read in the last three months or so was Robbins' "Still life with Woodpecker". (The desire to read will return in time. (The longest dry spell so far was the first year and a half after my divorce.))
I am kind of in a movie lull too. (When I first got my VCR Erica suggested a couple hundred movies for me to rent. It took a year of heavy movie watching to make it though that list. (Twas interesting, as most of that bunch was released during my marriage and it allowed me to catch up on what I had missed.))-(Maybe I od'd and now I need a break?)
Today I begin my 3rd year in Missoula.
(11pm) Quite nite. (Nice!)