(10am) Nice massage.
(Noon) I got another rejection on "Feelings" today. (I will have to ship out the package to another one. (Keep trying!))
I am still in the process of printing of the new version of "Outlaws and Poets", and now I have started another addition from Erica's letters. (Get this pile of work whittled down. (After this I will need to start editing the prose.)-(Then, when Erica finishes typing up the poems, edit them, and merge them into the main body of the book.)-(Then figure out how to fictionalize it all.))
(3pm) Time for a typing break.
Well, I finished with the printing project. (528 pages so far.)
I am getting weary of wearing dirty clothes.
(4pm) Nice walk.
Tis getting cool out, and it’s trying to snow a little. (Winter is overdue this year. (I hope it arrives soon!))
(6pm) Nice massage.
I took a long hot bath and put on some clean clothes. (Give myself a treat.)
(10pm) Quiet nite. (Nice.)
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(7am) One thought that occurred to me about my poetry is that poems others have perceived as depressing aren't always one’s which I consider depressing. (I think that is probably similar to my experience with others guessing, based on my lifestyle, that I am depressed now. (There is beauty and romance to be found in solitude, and people need to realize that!))
One thing I have noticed in the soap operas is that most people move on to another lover quickly. (It doesn't seem to happen quite that fast in real life, but most people I have known have moved onto other lovers within three months to a year. (I wonder if I ever will? (I suppose, in a way, I have. (I have built a relationship with myself.)) (I am not yet willing to give up the happiness I have found in now and go through the pain that will be necessary to find greater happiness in relationships; but I will get there.)))
I think the biggest advantages of finding a job now, would simply be the opportunity to be in that social setting (That City job would be real good, in that way.), and the opportunity that a steady income gives to put down some roots. (Besides my problem with intimacy, I also have one with commitment, and I feel the first commitment I have to make is to a place. (A job would help with both problems.))