I would still prefer to save the bars as somewhere to go with others, rather than going alone; but they are one of the best places here for meeting people and I need to get back to them. (I just don't want to get back into the daily habit again.) (First, I have to find a way to get past the anxiety about going though.)
Although I love oral sex and hate rubbers, I suppose that, being single, I should avoid oral sex and use rubbers. (Tis sad though as oral sex is one of my favorite parts. (Pussy is delicious!)) (Why can't being single be simpler?) (Considering that about 70% of people fuck around after they get married, I suppose it isn’t just the single people who need to be concerned.)
(8am) I have been day dreaming about money lately. (It would be nice; but it really doesn't matter as long as I have enough to survive. (There are things I can do with none, and I imagine there are women who won't mind that I don't have any.)-(Being broke has been a good excuse that a lot of people seem to accept, but the thing keeping me trapped in this prison is the anxiety I experience when I go out.))
I am still not able to focus on work. (I wonder sometimes why I hit these times, but have come to accept them.) (Actually, if there were people in my life, these would be times when I would be better company and have the time and energy to spend with them. (When I get into work, I tend to invest all my energy into it, and there isn't much of me left to give to others. (I will have to change that, to build relationships. (Relationships require a lot of energy, or they die.)-(People often use the phrase "quality time", and what I think that means is simply saving energy to give to one's relationships. (When I am burned out it wouldn't be quality time.)))))
I have been watching a lot of soap operas lately. (They are interesting.) (It isn’t something I would want to do all day, every day; but I am using them to study relationships and such, and that is useful to me.)
(11am) Nice massage.
(Noon) It has sure been a beautiful fall here.
I am down to $6. (I think I will invest it in a trip to Duelin Daltons, to see what it's like.)
(4pm) Nice workout.
(5pm) Erica stopped in for a visit. (Neat!) (She is sure beautiful! (She has been wearing a lot of pretty outfits lately.)-(Yum!))
I would guess the tradition of family and neighbors doing the cooking when a death occurs in a household is related to my observation of how emotional storms cause one to loose muscle control and not think clearly. (While the emotional wave of grief is crashing down on one, the kitchen could well be a dangerous place to be.)