If I had fucked even one in ten of the women who show up in my fantasies, I would have a great sex life.
I hope some work show up soon. (I have the rent paid through the end of June, most of the bills are paid up until then, and I am living conservatively (And I am cutting back even more.); so it isn’t a real problem yet, but ….) (It has been nice doing accounting for only seven weeks in the last seven months and being able to focus on studies and writing; but that is how I pay the bills, and I need to get back into the grind.)
It has been cooler again. (Samantha says a big snowstorm hit there on Thursday. (Spring time in the Rockies.))
(9pm) I had a good workout this afternoon. (My original goal was to get up to at least ten weights on each machine, and I am at least to that level on ten of the fifteen machines they have at the Club. (The others are going to take awhile, but I keep progressing.))
Miranda stopped by earlier. (She dropped off her tax stuff and some more blank tapes for more music. (When I finish taping this bunch, she will have collected over 100 new albums in two weeks.))
Erica dropped in too and said hi. (Neat!) (She says there is a party at Corky’s tonite for the women's pool league. (There are going to be a lot of drunken women out tonite.)) (She is pissed because the doctor has her on some pills now and she can't drink.)
My survival bills are mostly paid up till the end of June, but I have only got $200 left. (Time to tighten the belt a little more.)
I have gotten way behind on all my debts during this unemployment. (It will take me a few years of working and paying everything extra on debts, to get back to where I was when it began.) (Oh well, I am used to being broke.) (I do have a problem with the thought of asking a woman into my life, when the money problems are like they are. (If someone comes along and chases me, and is really willing to live a life of poverty to be with me, I will let her into my life; but I am not holding my breath, and I am not going to chase.))
(10pm) Quiet nite of tv and music. (Nice.)
4-14-87
(1pm) Erica says I should continue my affair with Sharon, as long as she is interested. (I will probably keep seeing her when she calls me, and wants to. (I am going to keep making it clear that it's just for a little companionship and sex, and I doubt she will keep coming by much longer.))
(10pm) Miranda stopped by a couple times earlier, and we got her tax returns done. (She says my music choices for her were ok. (Relief.) (What I did was pick music that fits all my different moods, so she got a wide variety.)) (She says she is going to take me to dinner and get me drunk, for all the things I have been doing for her lately. (That would be nice.) (She figures it will be cheap to get me drunk since I drink so seldom; but after I eat a few x-tops, I can drink all nite.))