11-21-86
(Midnite) There was an article in today’s paper about hunger. (The welfare system is sure structured so that those people are in a corner.) (If they try to work, they get kicked out of the system; so it's hard to justify trying.) (Our culture has taught women that they need domestic skills, and to depend on some man to provide for them. (Then they get divorced and they don't possess the necessary skills to go out into the world and make enough money to support themselves and their children. (We have to find some way to get women the skills they need to survive.) (I suppose that is part of why so many women stay with men who abuse them. (When the choice is poverty and welfare, is it really much of a choice?)))) (I bitch a lot about my situation, but a divorced woman with kids and no skills is in a lot worse a shape than I am!)
(2pm) Nice workout.
I got a letter from Carrie. (Her new beau took her for a holiday in Mexico. (It sounds like a fun trip. (Good for her.)))
The job situation is depressing. (There has only been one ad in two months. (And, if I got that one it would mean a $300/ month cut in pay from my last job. (All I seem to do is go backwards.))) (Everyone I work with tells me I am a genius, but what good is that when there are few jobs, and those don't pay. (And, they are all so boring!))
(6pm) Nice walk.
Erica dropped by and said hi. (Nice.)
(9pm) I took a long hot bath, shaved, and put on clean clothes. (Feels good.)
11-22-86
(4am) I ate three x-tops last nite around nine, and went to the Hat around eleven. (Twas wild.)-(Next to the last nite before it closes down.)-(Tis hard to believe there won't be anymore nites at the Hat. (Sad.))
I went over to Corky’s and bs'd with Dell and Ashley a bit. (Then at closing time Erica came in and we went over to Ashley's, had a couple brews, caught a buzz and bs'd.)
I am glad I went out tonite. (Best time I have had in months!)
(5am) I am still buzzing.
I think three x-tops are about right to go out on. (It allowed me to handle all the booze and smoke without passing out, and I wasn't too obnoxious.) (I could have dealt with an all nite party and I am in a good mood. (If it will allow me to remain awake and able to party all nite, speed will be a good social drug for me.))
(Noon) I didn't sleep too well. (Mr. Happy doesn't seem to know when enough is enough, on speed. (Seven visits with Rosie in six hours.)) (Then again, if I had "gotten lucky" last nite, that would have been positive.)
(2pm) Laundry time again.