I have avoided being egotistical about my skills as a lover, but maybe that is another of my mistakes? (My ex was a great teacher, and I have had lots and lots of practice!) (The women who have passed me by have missed out on some good sex! (Maybe having fun out of bed is more important to women?))
Maybe the women who have told me I will go from no lovers to lots of lovers are right? (Once I overcome my block and change my behavior, so I can get from sitting there in the bar alone to saying hello and getting them into bed; I may have more lovers than I know what to do with. (I am a good lover, and, if they are looking for good lovers, they will be back. (And, if women gossip about guy’s sexual skills, I will have a reputation soon that would attract other women.)))
I must have been f'ed up last nite because I can't read half the notes that I made to myself.
Someone called about midnite last nite. (I was drifting towards unconsciousness, so I told them to call back. (I think it was my sister.))
(10am) Breakfast, coffee, vitamins and Tylenol seem to have reestablished some amount of life in this old bod.
On accounting: I have yet to meet a man who was able to work with numbers all-day and shut them off at quitting time. (That is why so many accountants drink. (One fellow I worked with called cocktail hour "attitude adjustment time".)) (When I was married, I found that the best way to shut work off was sex.) (There must be other ways. (Ultimately, it’s a matter of finding something that knocks you out of the left brain focus on analysis toward the right brain functions, so that one can deal with people as people, instead of as numbers.))
(11am) Carrie just called and bs'd for awhile. (Nice!) (She agrees with Erica that, until I start being fun to be with, no one will want to be with me much. (And that working out will help my attitude.))
I don't think I am particularly unusual in lacking social and seduction skills. (Why don't they create schools that teach those parts of life? (There would be a ready market for the service, and it would improve a lot of people's lives.))
(Noon) I got a letter from Hunter. (He made me feel good by asking if I was 27 or 28.) (He is talking about joining the Coast Guard.) (He is down in Georgia now, on a holiday with a 26-year-old nurse who has the "hots" for him.) (His comment on my luck in bars: "6,000 hours and no action? Gonzo, there is something wrong here. I spend 1/2 hour in a bar and I can pick up a broad no problem." (Actually that 6,000 hours is just what I have racked up since my divorce. I also spent 1,000's of hours in bars before I got married, and I always struck out then too. (Except for the nite I met my ex.))
(6pm) I walked for two hours.
And went to the Club and learned how to use the Nautilus equipment.
My guess is that Hunter is so quick to pick up women because he senses who to hit on, has lots of lines, and has lots of practice at it. (And, he expects it to work.)
(11pm) More typing.