Quotes:
Carlos Castaneda, "The fire from within"-
"Self-importance is our greatest enemy."
"... the best way to get rid of melancholy is to make fun of it."
12-18-85
(6pm) Quote:
Carlos Castaneda-"Only when they are nothing do
they become everything."
(8pm) Erica dropped by and I gave her Xmas presents to her. (Tis nice having company.)
12-20-85
(6pm) Erica stopped by the office today. (She gave me some cookies and a recipe book. (Neat.))
My boss gave me $50, a pen, and some more cookies.
12-21-85
(2am) Well, tis officially winter today. (Seems like it has been winter for at least a month already.)
Erica stopped by the office yesterday and dropped off some cookies. (That was sweet.) (Now she is off to Anaconda to celebrate the holidays with her family.)
Tonite I went down to the Hat and caught the Colter Boys. (They were sounding good, and I let the music take me down memory lane. (e.g., I thought about slow dancing with Carrie. (That is my favorite memory from the Paw days.))) (I know I should be focusing on now, but sometimes it’s easier to slip into the past than to build new moments.) (Twas nice having the guys in the band to talk to tonite.) (I have to find some new friends.)
One thing I learned from knowing Hunter was that I need to find some way to become playful. (Women seem to like that in a man.)
I am finishing up one of Carlos Castaneda's books. (Tis weird and a bit
depressing, but also intriguing.)
I have got to work on not being too blue. (As Carrie always told me, I need to stop being sad that there isn't one person in my life and be happy about the little bits of love I get from a lot of people. (Tis wonderful having people in my life who care!))
I am in lust with one woman at work. (I would sure love to eat her pussy. (Oh well, there are a lot of pussies I would like to eat. (I am such a lech.)))-(As Carrie would say, stop talking about it and start doing it.)
12-22-85
(2am) I went back down to the Hat tonite. (Such fun!)
(5pm) I got the money yesterday that had been withheld from my County paychecks for retirement. (Yeah!)