Tis sad how Aids is increasing the level of alienation within our culture. (We need fewer barriers between people, not more!)
11-29-85
(4pm) Busy day of shopping and laundry.
11-30-85
(10am) Last nite I had a weird dream about being in a bar where everyone was hostile towards me. (One fellow even burned my arm with a cig.)
I went down to Corky's last nite. (It was dead. (The thirty below wind chill might have had something to do with that.))
I think part of the problem I am having with defining goals and focusing on them is that my libido keeps pushing me to resolve my sexual problems and find a regular girlfriend first.
12-1-85
(1am) Happy 35 months of celibacy to me. (I think I will drop my lie about how long it has been, now that I have moved.)
I hiked down to the Top Hat for two sets. (I was asked to dance, so I did a bit of that.) (For now, I think the purpose of me going out is simply to get to where people are used to seeing me around, and to where I am used to the new faces and places.)
(5pm) When I first got to the Top Hat last nite I sat at the bar. (I noticed a woman a couple stools down who had really scary eyes, so I moved to a table. (Later in the evening, she broke a beer bottle on the bar and tried to slice open the face of the guy who had taken the seat I had had. (Eyes seldom lie.)))
12-3-85
(8pm) Quote:
Tom Robbins-"... gods do not limit men. Men limit
men."
12-5-85
(6pm) It has been a wonderful few days. (Rereading Tom Robbin's books is something I have to do, now and then.)
12-7-85
(7pm) Last nite I went drinking with Erica and Miranda. (That was fun!)
Today I did laundry and cleaned house.