I tried to get hold of Erica last nite and this morning, but she hasn't been home in awhile. (I hope she is having fun.)
Carrie was a bit strange when I talked with her about this interview. (She was encouraging, but she also seemed a bit hesitant about it. (I think she is concerned about me being hung up on Erica still. (I worry about that too. (I think I have put those feelings in a better frame, but I may well be deceiving myself again. (If not, I will just have to deal with it.)))))
I am still really torn about moving. (I am not happy with my job. (Tis a dead end.)) (There are a lot of people around town who really despise me. (I have made a lot of friends, but, as always, I have collected some enemies.)) (I have few roots in Bozeman, and no one to hold me there.) (I need more money.) (I need a job that is more challenging, if accounting is how I have to make my living.) (Maybe Erica could help me meet some women. (None of my women friends here seem to know anyone to introduce me to.)) (On the other hand it’s nice knowing lots of people, and I love the town.) (I hate decision points.)
9-21-85
(10am) The fellow from the employment agency gave me a ride to the interview yesterday. (It seemed to go ok.) (Coincidence: On the way to the interview we stopped at a stop sign. When I looked out my window, I saw Erica in the car next to ours. (She took off before I caught her attention.))
After the interview I walked over to Erica's. (She was home. (Amazing.)) (I visited with her and her sister Charlotte for awhile.) (Erica gave me a tour of Missoula and then dropped me off at the bus depot. (I think I would like living in Missoula.)) (Twas sure nice seeing Erica!) (I was pretty anti-me in talking to her. (She always seems to do that to me.)-(I suppose it’s some kind of defensive reaction.)) (I asked her about Gwynn. (She has a beau too.))
The trip back went ok.
When I got back I walked over to Carrie's; and ended up doing shrooms with her and Hunter. (We definitely had fun!)
9-22-85
(10pm) I went to see "Creator" last nite.
Today I worked on this new project I have got going.
Then Carrie and Hunter stopped by and we watched some of "Farm Aid". We got tired of that and went to see "The God's must be crazy".
Josh stopped by too. (We had a nice chat. (He and Julia are having some troubles, but he is in school and trying.))
9-23-85
(1pm) Note from the ozone: I wonder how much of the bonding created by sex is instinctual and how much is an outgrowth of social conditioning?