(8pm) Finishing up those poems yesterday was a different experience. (I would do two to four stanzas, go to the next poem and do the same, and so on until I got back to the first; and then I did it all over again until they were all done. (If they were similar I wouldn’t be so surprised, but they are quite different.)) (As time passes I seem to be shifting from mostly writing about my own feelings to telling other people's stories.)
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(Noon) Last nite Samantha stopped by and we went down to the Paw.
Josh was there with Julia celebrating her birthday, so we partied with them. (Then Caroline cruised through with a date and things got noticeably tense.) (Josh says he is still planning on going back to school this fall and is trying to become a part of his family. (Good for him.))
(1pm) Notes from the ozone:
1. In "The Occult", Colin Wilson says that one person in twenty possesses
leadership capacity, one in twenty is a poet, and one in twenty have some occult potential
(what he calls Faculty X). (Interesting perception.)-(I wonder how it interrelates?)
2. Addiction is merely a symptom of a deeper problem. (Self hate usually.)
3. As one moves from writing poetry to fiction to non-fiction, it seems to be a process of adding veils.
(3pm) Quotes:
Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche-"One should not go
into churches if one wants to breath pure air."
"One has to get rid of the bad taste of wanting to be in agreement with many."
I was talking with a woman I know at the Paw the other nite, and she commented on what a sweet lady a mutual friend was and how sad it is that her husband beats her. (I will agree to both counts.) (What confuses me even more is why the woman I was talking with jumps in bed with that guy whenever he has a fight with the woman we were talking about. (?))
(10pm) Note from the ozone: Maybe the unconscious mind already knows everything and the process of learning is simply a process of developing a system of symbology sufficient to enable the unconscious mind to bring that knowledge to consciousness?
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(8am) Quotes:
Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche-"In the end one has
to do everything oneself if one is to know a few things oneself: that is to say, one has
much to do. - But a curiosity like mine is after all the most pleasurable vices."
"The Christian faith is from the beginning sacrifice: sacrifices of all freedom, all pride, all self-confidence of the spirit, at the same time enslavement and self-mockery, self-mutilation."
"Wherever the religious neurosis has hither to appeared on earth we find it tied to three dangerous dietary prescriptions: solitude, fasting and sexual abstinence!"
(Noon) Back to poetry land: