(Noon) I decided to take the afternoon off. (I can't focus on work or find any motivation to try, so it’s time for a little holiday.) (I think I will get an early start on my "three years" of celibacy celebration.)
(2pm) Line from a movie ad on tv: "Do you think people who are in shape have better sex?" (Yes.)
6-8-85
(5am) Happy "three years" of celibacy to me. (Ha.)
Hunter crashed over here last nite. (Carrie was out playing "baseball" with her cocaine buddies.) (He wanted to know what my "ideal" outcome was in moving to Missoula. (I told him my plan is to spend a few years getting to know Erica better and working on my financial problems, and if anything more should come of our relationship, work out whatever from there.))
I beat him three straight games of cribbage. (That is a switch.)-(His mind must have been on other things.)
He spent most of the evening trying to talk me into staying here and becoming a f'er. (I am just not cut out for that. (Or, maybe, it just isn’t time for me to explore that part of life.))
6-9-85
(5am) Yesterday I consumed much, played some Frisbee, got some sun, went back to losing at cribbage, ran around town awhile with some of Hunter's buddies (I still prefer women drinking buddies.), and passed out at seven.
Hunter's still after me to become a f'er. (I am just not ready yet to deal with intimacy.)
(5pm) Today I did laundry and read.
Samantha did drop in and visited for a bit. (That was nice.)
Mostly today I contemplated moving to Missoula. (The more I think about it, the righter it seems. (Or am I deceiving myself again?))
6-10-85
(6am) Samantha and Hunter dropped by last nite and watched some tv with me.
I am getting tired of Hunter's snide remarks about Rosie and me. (It may not be much, but it’s all I can deal with for now. (I deserve some pleasure.))
(8am) I wonder if part of why Hunter hassles me about becoming a f'er is an attempt to get me to confirm his attitude? (Mostly though, I think it’s that he wants me to start leading a wholer life.)
6-11-85
(8am) Hunter stopped by last nite and bs'd a bit.