It has finally warmed up enough for me to get my car started again. (Nice.)
I like the new Barbara Streisand song "Emotion". (I can relate.)
(9pm) I have to learn to relax. (Nothing is so important, bad, ...; to justify quitting life.)
I also have to learn to have more fun.
2-6-85
(6pm) Notes from the ozone:
1. Greed and impatience generally lead to poor choices.
2. Machines are tools, not God.
3. Two of the most crucial characteristics, that make human beings great, are emotion and intuition.
I wonder why Samantha invited me along on Friday nite? (About a month ago, Samantha and I were at the Paw and she was wishing she could go to Livingston to hear Leo's band play. I suggested she get Rena to drive her over, and Samantha said they weren't getting along right then. She then commented that, based upon my reaction the last time we had run into Rena, she didn't think I liked Rena either. (I do seem to be afraid of the women I fall into serious lust with, and I suppose I end up acting like I don't like them as a result.)-(I got burned so badly the last time I followed lust, I am a bit leery of it now.)) (Maybe Samantha was trying her hand at a little match making?) (Oh well, at least we are all back to getting along with each other.)
2-7-85
(6pm) Last nite Samantha called up, and we hit the Crystal and the Paw. (I danced a bunch and bs'd with a few people I ran into, who I knew from the old days. (One guy said that if I am not going to use it, I should cut my dick off.)) (Dancing in hiking boots requires some getting used to.)-(It will be nice when warm weather returns and I can go back to tennis shoes.) (Twas a fun nite.)
Today I worked on a tax course I am taking through the mail. (I enjoy writing, but I have my doubts about whether it will ever put food on the table. (In the mean time, I have to keep devoting time to the work that does do that.))
2-8-85
(6pm) Happy "32" months to me.
(8pm) My tax business has been busy this week. (I have collected $75 so far and I feel rich.)
(9pm) As the courthouse turns: Ron says the reasons that Missoula's welfare costs are six times that of here is that they are a lot looser than he is, and the average wage is higher there which leads more people to not accept minimum wage jobs. (One example of how the two counties are different is that when someone moves to Bozeman from somewhere else and goes to the welfare office, Ron buys them a bus ticket back to where they came from In Missoula they put them on welfare.)
I think the joy in life is to be found with friends. (It sure isn't in my work.)