(9pm) I am watching "The sun also rises" on tv. (Tis frustrating to always be the friend and never the lover. (Oh well, keep meeting strangers and maybe someday someone will want me. (Patience and perseverance.)))
(And the one’s rewarded most often, it seems.),
(11pm) I wonder if the reason nice guys are considered boring and jerks are fun is that jerks will say and do whatever it takes to get laid? (I suppose part of why Samantha turned me down was that I wasn't romantic at all. (I told the truth. I was horny and needed to get laid. (I am human too.))-(I didn't tell her I loved her, because I don't love her in that way. (That is how hearts get broken, and the reason so many today are so cynical.))-(I know lots of guys who will tell anyone anything if they think it will get their dick wet. (But does that make it right? (I have seen so many hearts broken in that way it doesn’t seem right to me.))))
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(6pm) Carrie has commented about Erica's health problems several times. (I wonder if she isn't trying to help push me past Erica? (Tis something I need to do and Carrie wants me to be happy.)-(Did I mention that she is a sweetheart too?)) (Carrie does have a tendency to hide the things she is trying to tell me inside of some other message. (The problem is that I am a bit dense, and I often miss subtleties.))
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